< I have an unusually high need to own the understanding of any thing I'm learning
This is called deprivation sensitivity. It’s different from intellectual curiosity, where the former is a need to understand vs. the latter, which is a need to know.
Deprivation sensitivity comes with anxiety and stress. Where intellectual curiosity is associated with joyous exploration.
I score very high with deprivation sensitivity. I have unbridled drive to acquire and retain important information.
It’s a blessing and curse. An exhausting way 2 live. I love it but sometimes wish I was not neurodivergent.
You're not neurodivergent. You're a suffering conscious being just like everyone else. Anxiety and depression are caused by ignorance, not circumstance or personality traits, or anything else. With ignorance there is greed, and anger, and delusion. It is because there is no limit to the diversity of delusion that you cling to the view that you are neurodivergent, and otherwise hold the view that you exist in such and such relations to such and such entities and possess so and so qualities and essences. This is why it is said that ignorance alone is the cause of all mental suffering and dissatisfaction experienced by conscious beings.
This is called deprivation sensitivity. It’s different from intellectual curiosity, where the former is a need to understand vs. the latter, which is a need to know.
Deprivation sensitivity comes with anxiety and stress. Where intellectual curiosity is associated with joyous exploration.
I score very high with deprivation sensitivity. I have unbridled drive to acquire and retain important information.
It’s a blessing and curse. An exhausting way 2 live. I love it but sometimes wish I was not neurodivergent.