I started studying science when I was 7. I tried to get people to learn it as well, but nobody wanted to. Just nobody. Then when they didn't like some results of scientific process, they came up with most stupid pseudoscientific arguments why things are actually the way they want them to be. When I understood that the same people vote for our leaders, I thought we'll be doomed for sure..
That's how I've seen the world. My grief has always been that with current scientific process and progress of technology we should be moving much faster towards better, more just world. Instead climate change, the first major problem we encountered with our new technology and powers, we completely screwed up our response and are taking a huge risk of massive loss of lives and ecosystems, while we're fighting about the most stupid stuff and choosing ridiculous leaders with bad reasons. Instead of critical thought, lots of people just get stuck with opinions they want to have, no matter how clearly they're wrong and based on lies and feelings.
And I've felt it's quite hard to stay motivated in this world. My motivation has always been really finicky, I can get extremely motivated on correct circumstances, but have a complete lack of motivation when things are wrong. During past decades these have led me to do a lot of drinking (I've finally mostly stopped few years back) and progressing through life really slowly, sometimes just stopping for months or even a year. I wish I could get over it, but it feels harder and harder. Everything I predicted how the future would be screwed came through, just much much worse I ever could have figured. Even if we beat climate change, there's other problems on the way and I'm not so optimistic how we'll handle those. Feels though to try to be building a better future when it feels most people don't even try or care, when they could affect so much change for better for so little.
That's how I've seen the world. My grief has always been that with current scientific process and progress of technology we should be moving much faster towards better, more just world. Instead climate change, the first major problem we encountered with our new technology and powers, we completely screwed up our response and are taking a huge risk of massive loss of lives and ecosystems, while we're fighting about the most stupid stuff and choosing ridiculous leaders with bad reasons. Instead of critical thought, lots of people just get stuck with opinions they want to have, no matter how clearly they're wrong and based on lies and feelings.
And I've felt it's quite hard to stay motivated in this world. My motivation has always been really finicky, I can get extremely motivated on correct circumstances, but have a complete lack of motivation when things are wrong. During past decades these have led me to do a lot of drinking (I've finally mostly stopped few years back) and progressing through life really slowly, sometimes just stopping for months or even a year. I wish I could get over it, but it feels harder and harder. Everything I predicted how the future would be screwed came through, just much much worse I ever could have figured. Even if we beat climate change, there's other problems on the way and I'm not so optimistic how we'll handle those. Feels though to try to be building a better future when it feels most people don't even try or care, when they could affect so much change for better for so little.